Confessed to the World

So a couple weeks ago I spent the night with Everett. It was an intense night filled with tears and laughter, fueled by emotions and alcohol… oh and a hot tub!

Long story short, Everett and I had sex. Not going into great detail here, but it was pretty amazing.

Then a few days later after everything seemed cool and as if it was going in the direction I’ve waited so long for it to go in, Everett bailed on me. I was on my way to see him and when I got there the hat I had bought him was on the porch and he wasn’t responding to my messages.

I was on my way to confess my feelings to him. Instead, I confessed them to the World. Beginning with Rogue, then Aubrey, and finally Tai. As it turns out I’m not at all ashamed or embarrassed. I am very proud that I have these feelings for him, and I am so relieved that he knows this now.

Introducing the Rogue Child

In a shocking turn of events Aubrey most certainly is not pregnant, but Keirra is! Now Aubrey is swimming through the same emotional pool as I was when she thought she might be pregnant with her friend’s boyfriend’s baby. I would consider it karmic justice if I didn’t know how much is sucks.

Everett obviously hasn’t been taking his medication. He quit his job and quietly moved out of my condo, he even took Lucky! Unfortunately this just means that he is once again stuck with the incomparable Ms. Jasmine. It’s pathetic, sickening, and pretty stupid; but he chose it. Once again this is all on him. In my heart I hope he finds some level of the happiness he so desperately wants to find with her, but my very logical brain knows that kind of happiness just isn’t there to be found. Period.

I’ve been hanging out with my friend Rogue these past few weeks. I met her through Aubrey about three years ago when Aubrey was trying to date her. Rogue is the friend who once asked me if I would consider marrying her for the benefits of marriage, and I didn’t have to think too hard about it. Since then we’ve became good friends and we’ve discussed having a baby together someday when we both get our shit together. This day cannot come soon enough for me.

Rehab, Suicide, and a Kitty

Oh how exciting these past few days have been!

Everett did decide to move back in with me and I’m pretty happy about it. The first night he went shopping with Jasmine and I had the thought of inviting her to have dinner with us. Although I’m not a big fan of hers I understand that she is still very important to him and he needs to feel that everyone in his life is welcome at a place he calls home.

I had paid for dinner and was getting drinks when apparently she made the comment that I was creepy because I tickle his head when we’re relaxing. She literally said that I was creepy, and I’m not at all happy about it.

That night Everett slept on the couch and tossed and turned, the next day he confessed to me how badly he wanted to come into my bedroom and cuddle. I explained that he was welcome to do so.

Then Aubrey and I had a few words because she wants to move to another county to live with a friend and get clean. I told her that she can’t run away from the drugs and that if she doesn’t trust herself not to go hunting for them, that she needs to go to rehab. Because none of her friends are going to be able to keep her from the drug if that’s what she wants.

The next day Aubrey decided to go into rehab, but I haven’t heard anything as far as follow through. I believe, it may have just been an attempt for attention.

Speaking of attention. The second nigh after Everett had moved out, he was going to spend the night with Mark. Once Jasmine found out she threatened to kill herself unless he came back to take care of her. He called me for advice and I told him to call the police. He did. She is now doomed to having sleepovers with her mother for a little while, and the consequence? She was told to take a month off of work and mommy would pay for everything.

Last night we went to get Everett’s cat, Lucky, and they both decided to cuddle up with me in my bed. I had the best sleep that I’ve had in a long time. It felt very good to wake up next to somebody for a change.