Just Another Binge

I’ve barely been talking to Aubrey lately because she obviously had sex with some douche while on one of her recent binges, because she admitted a month ago that she may be pregnant! She wasn’t. Still this really cuts at me not only because of how I feel about her, but because of my adoration for children. She knows how badly I want to have a child someday and although we were drunk at the time, we had talked about it.

These past few days have been weighing on our friendship because not only are we barely speaking, but she’s been staying with her ex-girlfriend Natalie and bingeing on meth and whatever else under the guise that she’s so depressed over losing Keirra.

As I write this Aubrey’s trying to find a way to Harmony Hospital because she can’t breathe. She’s very weak and raspy sounding, and I can’t help but think it’s all because of her recent meth use.

I don’t know what I’d do if something were to happen to her, but I can’t get past the thought that she’s making herself this way.